UGH.. I'm not sure if I'm happy or what. I mean, yeah, my dad is marrying the woman he loves and she's like.. a better mom than my real mom, but just ugh.. the stress and the lack of freedoms.

They're getting married the tenth of May, and for the past month, I've been doomed to my house. Going to a friend's house? Hahaha. No. Having a friend over? Hahaha. No.

Now, I don't mean to sound like a priss or anything, but I live to spend time away from the house and NOT be forced to be at my parent's beck and call. This is torture, and while I'm reaaaaaaaally happy that my parent's are getting married, I'm not happy that I got recruited to help with all the set-up; which entailed me being bored out of my mind 90% of the time because I have nothing to do, but I can't do anything because I have to be here to help my parents. >.<

On TOP of that, I'm tired, I feel like crap and it's hot. My dad is being real irritable so any little fucking thing I do wrong I get yelled at for or he makes me feel stupid and I'm real close to just.. fuck I dunno, but I'm going insane.

Now, granted, you're probably like "Wtf don't complain, you have it good you dumb whore." but you know what, I really don't give a shit. I'm sorry I complain about shit happening to me, but if I didn't I'd probably kill myself so go jump off a cliff if you don't want to see people who don't have it as bad as you rant.

I seriously feel like a criminal forced to do community service >.< Like.. I wouldn't mind if I had to help them (Hell! I want to help them with the wedding) but I want to be able to do some things for myself as well. Otherwise I get like this and when I get like this it's bad. I become depressed and destructive when bored.

I have pen ink all over my fingers because I took a razor blade to a pen << >> Yeah, I'm that fucking bored. I could probably make something out of duct tape, but I'd probably end up crumpling it up and throwing it away. I could draw, but then again, I've done nothing but eat, sleep, draw, and watch TV for the past month, I could seriously go for like.. a walk in the park with a friend or something. BUT I can't even do that because my parents may need me. Dx

-deep breath- Wow. I wasn't expecting this rant to be so long, but I need to vent.. Like.. seriously. I'm about to jump through my window and go running in the street hooting and hollering like a mad man because I'm going insane. HAHAHAH! I'm so fucking bored I'm bouncing in my chair. WOOO!~

>.< This is what happens when you lock me up in my own house for a month. I go insane, I rant and I cry. YES I CRY, I'm bored to tears.

If that wasn't bad, I've been slightly depressed for the past two months (if not more) and like.. what the fux, I just can't take life any more. It's stopped throwing lemons and started throwing grapefruits.

ANYWAYS, I think I'm done here.. for now. See ya!